I've done many things. I can't say that I am NOT proud of them, because I have made those choices for myself at the time because I thought it would make my life better and more...interesting. I don't regret anything being with this new guy and experiencing all these new things.
It's just are these the RIGHT choices? What will happen if I do this or that? Can we be together forever. I love him so much. What if I feel this way or another way?